Monday, November 4, 2013

Dear..,



Dear, In Coming Years You Might Remember Me Or
Busy Living Your Life, You May Forget, I Loved You Truly Even When You Didn’t.

Suddenly You Will Get My Remembrance Some Day.
You May Worry, Why This Stupid Loved You Too Much
Even After Knowing He Would Never Get You.
Why Did He Hurt Himself? Is Everything Worthy Of It?
You Will Question, Yourself…

Honey, I Believe On That Day In Your Life,
You Would Be Thinking My Sad Plight For The First Time.
After That I Trust, You Will Wish To See Me
And Know Whether Everything Is Fine In My Life Or Not.

At That Time I, Watching Your Life Unknown To You Will Come To Your Sight
And Smile And Tell You That Everything In My Life Is Going Fine.

Still Hiding The Saddest Truth That Loving You Is Not
The Reason Behind My Tears.
It Is That You Didn’t Love Me Back Which Made My Life Painful.

After You Move Away You Know What I Would Do?
I Will Just Cry Wishing That You Hadn’t Gone Then And You Haven’t Left Me Now.



Wednesday, June 5, 2013


Revathis engagement;-
Kumaravel started seeing alliance for Revathi. Finally they were about to consider Kalyan as her groom.  He was a well built man of Twenty five years.  He owned three lorries, two tractors and he was in some other business too.  Kumaravel well knew that Yuva would be a perfect match to her daughter.  Her sister's family would  take care of her well but when he thought abou the day Yuva came shouting at him, he felt he didnt want  a son-in-law like him.  Chellathal didnt like his decision and she was ashamed of herself for being not able to stand against it.  Kumaravel didnt felt endagering his daughter's life in order to feel satisfied for his revenge.  How Yuva going to react, these nightmares how did they arose.  He thought how sweet Revathi was.  They were breaking a match made in heaven.  He felt his mom wouldnt allow this to happen.  Somewhere deep inside he wished his uncle would not do this to him.  Revathi wouldnt allow this, he felt.  He wished he could stand against it.  He knew he would not, because he couldnt, for he was always his mom's boy.  He couldnt even convey his wish to Revathi, his own mother. What on world he is.  Why he was such a timid? He was such a pure heart didnt want to scratch a relationship glass, he was afraid. he was born to love and didnt worry whether he was loved back or not.  He didnt really love her, but many a times he wished she was her perfect wife and he was her loveable husband.  A perfect daughter-in-law to his family.  A golden daffodil that would never spoil his beautiful garden called his family.  He somewhere things went wrong and no use in lamenting for them now.  Life is all about isnt he felt.  Revathi's engagement process was going on all a busier way.  Kumaravel came to Chellathal to discuss about it.  While she was there in the house, they discussed about the people they needed to invite, dishes to be served in the feast, jewels to be worn by Revathi and all other requirements for her engagement.  Velusamy asserted,
"I think Vijaya should be invited for this engagement.  Somewhere things went wrong and you both fought with each other.  But this all common in a relationship and in every family.  So its better to leave all those things and forgive each other. "
"If you want to say another word about this then get out of my house this minute.  I was about to die on that day she didnt came.  Now applying lipstick to the corpse whats the use."
For the good of all, Velusamy kept quiet.
The same compound in Nallur where three already got married and many other happy functions took place was the venue for bringing golden vibrations into the rhythming life of Revathi.
At last he tried his chance by saying the same to his mom.  Vijya didnt want Revathi to be engaged to someone other, after knowing the fact that her son longs to live with her.  She told him that she would talk with Chellathal and if necessary with Kumaravel too and ensure that his girl was destined to be his always. 
  Yuva and Sri took a journey to Nallur after long years.  Chellathal as planned earlier came to Kali temple.  This three talked for a long time.  Chellathal at corner of her heart felt the sky darkened all these days was getting its vivid rainbow back.  Chellathal this time didnt want to talk the same with Kumaravel.  She instead talked with Velusamy.  Velusamy agreed to Chellathal's words and he spoke with groom's side. 
He told them that there had been some conflicts going on between Kumaravel and his sister and he made the decision in a haste.  They are disgraced though but didnt want to ruin a family because of it.  After the engagement there was no answer from the groom's side.  Velusamy also requested them to keep these things as secret from Kumaravel. 

Sunday, May 26, 2013

The Motorcycle Diaries: Notes on a Latin American Journey by Ernesto Guevara, Aleida Guevara March (Translator)

As the newyork times said about this book, this journey might have been his adventure of a liftime had not been his total life turned into an amazing adventure. This book made me to research a lot of things about history esp about Che. I understood how leaders are really formed, it is when they do not want obey and go on with what they think they could possibly change. What I feel is that neither he nor this book would have become famous had he carried enough of money to stay and travel his nine months and 8ooo km. Like this journey made Che to find out the truth that only needy people easily help the needy people because they know how it feels, this book will make us to realise the truth that every leader was once an ordinary until he meets the change that questions him and drags him to the lifetime change. After reading the Bolivian execution of him I feel him as a real hero and this journey definitely gave some impact to his apetite of becoming ONEThe Motorcycle Diaries: by Ernesto Guevara on Goodreads

Tuesdays With Morrie by Mitch Albom

I found this book very useful to me. Some of the quotes in this book has already taken my heart away. Being a non-fiction, I expected the book will be charming as well as boring. But as they say reality is stranger than the fiction, I could not believe that a man, who is not fictional can be this much optimistic about everything and can see everything differently. Anyone could read this book in one go, and thats what makes this book special. Though there is nothing new in this book, nothing very appreciable, it has left an everlasting impression, may be because I too have a professor like Morrie and every page in this book somewhat reminded him of to me.

Tuesdays With Morrie by Mitch Albom on Goodreads

The Importance of Being Earnest by Oscar Wilde

A good play. I chose this play while thinking to read hamlet. .Loved this play. It is rare to read plays as thoughtful as Merchant of Venice, As humorous as Midsummer Night's dream, as dramatic as Julius Caesar and as romantic as Romeo and Juliet, but witty writing in this play too can be compared to Sakespeare's. The Importance of Being Earnest by Oscar Wilde on Goodreads

Till The Last Breath by Durjoy Datta

 Read this Durjoy's book. As usual it is awesome once again. I wonder how come a guy of 24 or 25 years have successfully written 9 novels, thats mind blowing. Really the gods must be crazy. They gave everything to you I envy. He has given you talent, skill, which you wittily converted into fame and money. You are a millionaire and there are various other reasons why girls go crazy over you and even for your dimples. But I really admire your writing and dedication in it. I have read three of your books and two of them were mind-blowingly fascinating. You know, CB sucks when yours are compared with him. You have an unique writing skill. Many even I criticized you (Earlier) that you just write amateurish erotic stories and got all the fame, But every one who says so sucks, they are blind fuckers they dont notice your beautiful usuage of words, how you keep the story pacing, and more than all an unguessable climax with usually an O henry sort of ending. Hats off!! Before two years I used to message you and you replied my messages but I am sure you would have forgotten all. But all I wanted to say is, as a reader I admire your writing and as a wannabe writer I just envy your appreciable writing. :))))
Till The Last Breath by Durjoy Datta on Goodreads

The God Delusion by Richard Dawkins

Warning--Contains hurting words for theists:-


This book is awesome because it made me to find answers for some of my unanswered questions and have also incited new questions in me…

I will begin with Pascal’s wager—

“You better believe in God because if you are right you stand on to get eternal bliss. If you are wrong it won’t make any difference. On the other hand if you don’t believe in god and you turn out to be wrong then you get eternal damnation.” It’s all ok but don’t we become fools when we believe in things that do not exist or even never been.

How come I would be able to believe that there is someone with four faces, the Brahma, the blue man Krishna and most incredible Shiva, it’s so funny that he has Ganges in his head… Similarly how come I would be able to believe that there is a man who was born to a virgin and so on stories the book hilariously described…

I strongly believe that these stories were fantasy stories told to the kids very long ago. Who knows centuries later Harry porter might be worshiped as a god… How can I be so rude on billions’ belief? One of the most beautiful analogy that fascinated me which the book contained is as follows..

None would believe that a china tea-cup is revolving in between the Earth and Mars in an eccentric orbit. Few would believe that if I could cite it on some ancestral book described about it. On the other hand, if the same be tutored in the school and children are preached to believe it, may be after some decades most will believe it. You can understand where I am heading…

The random prayer experiment described in this book remained adorable.. There is quote.. “When someone says, I will pray for you.. Often I wanna tell them what’s the use in speaking to yourself…” Human superstition is boundless. If you think people living in Tanna believing John Frum as their God is absurd then in the same I give mind to absurdity in believing other GODs too. Who knows? Jesus, Shiva or Krishna might be some charismatic personalities like Elvis or Diana and they are worshipped because of memetic evolution, as the book portrays.

Let me ask one thing, I am human and so were the people who said to be God blessed or have seen God. If I couldn’t see God then how could they? If God really exists, then he wishes to be worshipped by you then won’t he dislike me for opposing him? Then why didn’t he do anything (esp with his omnipotent power) and as the every holy book finally says believe only in your God. Most of the religious people believe in the existence of their own God and don’t give a damn to existence of other God. Similarly I don’t give a damn to existence of other God and it will be so a fool if I would believe in the existence of innumerable Gods in my own Hindu religion. And I guess I don’t wanna be a fool.

Leave all these, don’t we follow helping someone because it is morally good, then why don’t you follow religion because it suggests morally good. On the other hand if I don’t follow the religion that suggests morally good, then why do I follow deeds like helping others, etc which are morally good as described in religion. When I b3li3ve that no god is watching me then why I fear committing a crime or literarily why be good when none is there to question? This book answered this question which remained confusingly unanswered within me. It may be because I have to protect my self image. People generally like generous people, being generous and altruistic is a kind of prestige. And living with prestige may be incited from and ingrained in the memes such as to satisfy the sexual needs since our ancestors. The main driving force of being morally good is the sexual lust. Ok why be morally good necessarily chosen as the standard or target for fulfilling the sexual appetite and why not morally bad?

If we decide that in a group of 100 members the most lieing person would be given the prize. But how could he be determined, when what is a lie meant can never be explained if everything everyone says is a lie. Yes ‘morally bad’ will diversify people and increase the trouble in a way not be handled. So things have to be this way for the best of all and this got inherited in our genes from our predecessors.

Furthermore they say there is an advantage of theism. Theists say, see I am a believer and I am happy look at you, you are restless. I confess that before reading this book I too thought that what they are saying were right. When you believe you have someone to watch out things you can be peaceful. But truly as Bernardshaw said, “The fact that a believer is happier than a skeptic is no truer than the fact that a drunken man is happier than a sober one.”

But I wasn’t satisfied by certain other questions answered…. Especially origin of world is told be in the same way as in origin of species by Darwin.

Finally I emphatically say that I don’t know whether an omnipotent force exists or not but I strongly believe that it doesn’t exist as in the way some people have described or engraved. ‘Sati’ was once forcibly believed but now brushed as ignorant superstition. And I believe someday the way people worship, pray to, pray for, trust in, base their lives on so called GOD will be brushed aside as an ignorant superstition.

Before reading this marvelous book, I was an agnostic leaning towards theism but after reading this I have become de-facto agnostic leaning towards agnosticism. It is because even now I believe the existence of God cannot be comprehended and I live my life in a way that no really a God exists in the way people have described or preached me. May be in some other way we couldn’t comprehend or he doesn’t exist at all.
The God Delusion by Richard Dawkins


God Delusion Book Review

Contains spoilers and hurting words for theists:-


This book is awesome because it made me to find answers for some of my unanswered questions and have also incited new questions in me…

I will begin with Pascal’s wager—

“You better believe in God because if you are right you stand on to get eternal bliss. If you are wrong it won’t make any difference. On the other hand if you don’t believe in god and you turn out to be wrong then you get eternal damnation.” It’s all ok but don’t we become fools when we believe in things that do not exist or even never been.

How come I would be able to believe that there is someone with four faces, the Brahma, the blue man Krishna and most incredible Shiva, it’s so funny that he has Ganges in his head… Similarly how come I would be able to believe that there is a man who was born to a virgin and so on stories the book hilariously described…

I strongly believe that these stories were fantasy stories told to the kids very long ago. Who knows centuries later Harry porter might be worshiped as a god… How can I be so rude on billions’ belief? One of the most beautiful analogy that fascinated me which the book contained is as follows..

None would believe that a china tea-cup is revolving in between the Earth and Mars in an eccentric orbit. Few would believe that if I could cite it on some ancestral book described about it. On the other hand, if the same be tutored in the school and children are preached to believe it, may be after some decades most will believe it. You can understand where I am heading…

The random prayer experiment described in this book remained adorable.. There is quote.. “When someone says, I will pray for you.. Often I wanna tell them what’s the use in speaking to yourself…” Human superstition is boundless. If you think people living in Tanna believing John Frum as their God is absurd then in the same I give mind to absurdity in believing other GODs too. Who knows? Jesus, Shiva or Krishna might be some charismatic personalities like Elvis or Diana and they are worshipped because of memetic evolution, as the book portrays.

Let me ask one thing, I am human and so were the people who said to be God blessed or have seen God. If I couldn’t see God then how could they? If God really exists, then he wishes to be worshipped by you then won’t he dislike me for opposing him? Then why didn’t he do anything (esp with his omnipotent power) and as the every holy book finally says believe only in your God. Most of the religious people believe in the existence of their own God and don’t give a damn to existence of other God. Similarly I don’t give a damn to existence of other God and it will be so a fool if I would believe in the existence of innumerable Gods in my own Hindu religion. And I guess I don’t wanna be a fool.

Leave all these, don’t we follow helping someone because it is morally good, then why don’t you follow religion because it suggests morally good. On the other hand if I don’t follow the religion that suggests morally good, then why do I follow deeds like helping others, etc which are morally good as described in religion. When I b3li3ve that no god is watching me then why I fear committing a crime or literarily why be good when none is there to question? This book answered this question which remained confusingly unanswered within me. It may be because I have to protect my self image. People generally like generous people, being generous and altruistic is a kind of prestige. And living with prestige may be incited from and ingrained in the memes such as to satisfy the sexual needs since our ancestors. The main driving force of being morally good is the sexual lust. Ok why be morally good necessarily chosen as the standard or target for fulfilling the sexual appetite and why not morally bad?

If we decide that in a group of 100 members the most lieing person would be given the prize. But how could he be determined, when what is a lie meant can never be explained if everything everyone says is a lie. Yes ‘morally bad’ will diversify people and increase the trouble in a way not be handled. So things have to be this way for the best of all and this got inherited in our genes from our predecessors.

Furthermore they say there is an advantage of theism. Theists say, see I am a believer and I am happy look at you, you are restless. I confess that before reading this book I too thought that what they are saying were right. When you believe you have someone to watch out things you can be peaceful. But truly as Bernardshaw said, “The fact that a believer is happier than a skeptic is no truer than the fact that a drunken man is happier than a sober one.”

But I wasn’t satisfied by certain other questions answered…. Especially origin of world is told be in the same way as in origin of species by Darwin.

Finally I emphatically say that I don’t know whether an omnipotent force exists or not but I strongly believe that it doesn’t exist as in the way some people have described or engraved. ‘Sati’ was once forcibly believed but now brushed as ignorant superstition. And I believe someday the way people worship, pray to, pray for, trust in, base their lives on so called GOD will be brushed aside as an ignorant superstition.

Before reading this marvelous book, I was an agnostic leaning towards theism but after reading this I have become de-facto agnostic leaning towards agnosticism. It is because even now I believe the existence of God cannot be comprehended and I live my life in a way that no really a God exists in the way people have described or preached me. May be in some other way we couldn’t comprehend or he doesn’t exist at all.



Julius Caesar By Shakespeare

Beautifully written...for it is really work of a genius


Brutus:

Tears for his love

Joy for his victory

Honour for his valour

And death for his ambition...

at last..

Antonio

He was the noble of all the romans

His life was gentle

Elements so mixt in him that

Nature would stand up and call

"He is the man"   Julius Caesar on Goodreads

O henry Short Stories

I read few of O Henry's short stories in my high school. Since then he became my favorite writer  His stories has inspired me a lot, I am a kind of writer now and this fame partially belongs to him too. I was swept off by After twenty years and gift of magi.   While reading last leaf I remember I was moved as never before. THOSE WERE NOTHING BUT THE SLICES OF LIFE. THE O HENRY AWARD IS THE MOST PRESTIGIOUS AWARD FOR SHORT FICTION. I BELIEVE HIS WIT IN THE TWISTS AND ENDINGS OF THE STORY DESERVES IT. SO, I DECIDED TO READ HIS STORIES BUT HE HAS INCREDIBLY WRITTEN MORE THAN ONE COULD IMAGINE OF ABOUT 600 STORIES. SO I SEARCHED THROUGH INTERNET AND READ ABOUT some OF HIS FAMOUS STORIES AND EVERYONE TURNED OUT TO BE A MASTERPIECE. Don't miss to read the stories I have mentioned below,


1. The Gift of Magi

2. Last Leaf

3. After Twenty Years

4. The Cop And The Anthem

5. The Ransom For The Red Chief

6. Furnished Room

7. Detective's detector

8. The Pendulum

9. One Dollars Worth
   O Henry Short Stories On Goodreads

Breakfast at Tiffany's by Truman Capote

It is nothing but a flattering of a geisha. Perhaps, the writing style and ending of the novel is excellent. Gripping. At last I liked Eliza Golightly for the way she took her life and she encouragingly faced the consequences of it, but it is not something that is impressive . But the writer flattering much about this character is much annoying, so I feel that it can never be called as a classical novel.
 Breakfast at Tiffany's by Truman Capote

The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini

 I was first hesitant to read this book as it was mainly the title that made me to buy this book. But at last the book turned out to be a good one. The story is entirely an interesting one and the book was much gripping from the beginning to the end. With full of twists and perfect metaphors this book makes the readers to be overwhelmed by the effort the author has put in. It gave me a good knowledge about Afghanisthan and lives of some Musilms. The story's one of the protagonist Hassan is a role model how a man should be loyal to one...I admire the talent of this author to collect various details and his immense contribution for this....those at last made this novel world famous
The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini

2 States: The Story of My Marriage by Chetan Bhagat

This book is an excellently blended with humor and vulgar words both will bring laughter. I loved this book and I believe this will turn out to be a good movie, though the story sounds jaded. I could learn that chetan is following a unique writting syle compared to others. This book is gripping but the story is lengthened unnecessarily for a long time. Moreover the story was easily guessable and this makes a little boredom, especially the last chapters.2 States: The Story of My Marriage by Chetan Bhagat

Jonathan Livingston Seagull

Till now this is the worst book I have read. If there had not been some pictures in between I would never have completed this book. And I am really glad its a short book. On the other hand this is surely a life changing book because you will regret reading after this...:((


Jonathan Livingston Seagull on Goodreads

Ps I Love You by Cecelia Ahern

This novel contained the best theme I ever came across. The opening pages filled with hopelessness and sadness slowly extends into a heart warming tale, when we understand there is some great thing done by Gerry to harry...perhaps, the novel gets boring as the pages passes by, as we could easily understand what would happen next. Anyway, I appreciate the author for giving a story which has never been told before. And I am sure it would be a nice read for depressed souls, especially who have lost someone they love... Though I was really bored with the 500 pages novel, I cant rate it less because the story is an untold one and unthought either...Expecting to see the film soon, as I hope it would fetch my tears when these sentiments are captured as a motion...


P.S. I love the title of this novel much, as half of the story is explained by this...
Ps I Love You by Cecelia Ahern

The Scarlet Pimpernel by Emmuska Orczy

 This novel is one of the cherished stories of my school days. My English mam explained each and every chapter with full demonstration dragging us to the scene. I could still remember the exact story line and some of the characters names. I slightly loved this novel during my school. As days went, after reading some other novels I could realise how wonderful this novel was. Set with a background of French Revolution, it gives the readers to guess some of the things, which were happened that period. Along with a beautiful love story, in which ego and pride occupies the major place, this novel is perfect page turner and avid readers will finish it in one sitting. The chaos existing in between the life of Lady Margerite and Percy Blackney in what way related to the French Revolution, what was their position in the revolution and how their life changes with time? These questions are beautifully conveyed in this novel with unexpected twists. This novel is surely a good read for readers who much wanted to be entertained.
The Scarlet Pimpernel by Emmuska Orczy

The Old Man and the Sea by Ernest Hemingway

This is the first novella, which I completed reading in .pdf format. This novel flaunting the skills of Ernest Hemingway is an excellent read. This novella created a writing revolution in American Literature and no doubt that it does because of the simplicity, economical usage of words & characters and no narration of unnecessary stories that are apart from the plot. Though in this novella the old man is lonely for most of the time, Hemingway made me to accompany him in the all the moments of troubles, pain, luck and glory. The theme of this novella is so good and like is the narration of the story. Hats off! to the author for choosing vivid theme and locations for narrating the story. It is told that Hemingway revised the novel many times before he published and the perfection in the usage of words to commas substantiates this. But coming to cons of the novella, at times the story is too boring that makes us wonder why this story goes on and on...Leaving those, this novella is so good and inspiring as well that i decided to buy a hard copy of this novella.
The Old Man and the Sea in Goodreads

The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks

Being read a good novel, "A Walk to Remember" I decided to try another novel of Nicholas Sparks. After going through some of the reviews i read full synopsis and short story of it in some website. This was little inspiring, the hype of this book made me to buy it. At last i bought it, read few pages and kept it safe on the closet for more than months. I tried a lot to complete it, but the first few boring pages impeded my way.

     But when I come across few pages, the excellent twists, flawless editing, fabulous quotations and beautiful narration of the story made me to wield this book oblivious of other things. This book conveys a beautiful love story, which is to be cherished by adopting the same in our lives too. The last few pages of this book are as gripping as if the story is happening to ourselves. And no doubt that few pages of this book will fetch some tears from you as a compliment to the story it conveys you. I really loved this book and decided to read books of this kind. I understood why and how this book has created waves in many hearts. This book is realistic, simple and indeed worth the hype.
   There are only few books which every one will fall in love with and this is one of them. For every loving heart the Notebook is a must read. And moreover the aspiring writers and voracious readers will also be swept off their feet, once they could place their hands on it. After reading this book you will be very much happy and complacent of being read a beautiful love story, that may too close to your future life. The Notebook on Goodreads

The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

I will neither say it as a good book nor a bad one. I liked some of the inspirational quotes, which are a little spiritual though, and the theme involved in it. The book is more spiritual and it is crystal clear that Atheists won't be holding this book for a much time. What i feel is that this book is a good page turner and there is some suspense prevailed over the few pages. The book has a good ending. The book being a translated one, the translator should be cheered up for his tremendous work. But other than these facts it is the hype of this book, which made me to put my hands over it. It can never be appraised to be an overwhelming one; i feel that this book is over-hyped.



Alchemist on Goodreads

Illusion by Charlotte Lamb

This is the first novel I read and everything beautifully portrayed in this book is still in my mind. The beauty of Venice is awesome-ly told and the story line has been a much captivating one. The author took me into Deborah's journey and I really loved the ride. Being a Mills and Boon novel the happy ending is an expected thing, though it was differently told. I was a little disappointed that this good book is not famous, though it really deserves it...

Saturday, May 25, 2013

I Too Had A Love Story.. by Ravinder Singh

It is HIS PERSONAL DIARY...but it is clear that not everything written in it is true. Being a true account all i could do is feel petty for the Ravinder's plight but i could, a little enjoy the book. It is the reviews and unnecessary hype given to this novel made me to spend my time to sympathize this love story. Applauds for the author for conveying a story with a simple language (of course without any f words), and this book is a good page turner. I honestly could not appreciate this novel by any means though some of my friends claim it to be good. The story is easily predictable

A Walk to Remember by Nicholas Sparks

It is the second novel I read in my life, and this will be the most beautiful novel I ever read in my life. I saw the film first and I am damn impressed by the film. It is a little similar to the story which i thought of writing, so I hated why does the film being made, but in way I have to accept that this film is flawless. So I am not much worried and this film remains as one of my all time favorite romantic movies. After seeing this film, I decided to read the novel as well. Though I knew the story before hand, the last few pages of the novel is as gripping as the climax of the movie.
How can a man like Landon Carter can fall in love with a much christian girl like Jamie Sullivan? Can fate dissolve the hopes of some true love stories? What true love means? When things are different from what we expect, then will the love remain the same or alters? These questions are exquisitely answered by this damn good novel. This novel will make the ones who has lost or about to lose their loved ones to shed their tears immensely. But coming to the negative parts of the novel, the first half of the novel is little boring and doesn't contain many twists. And I loved the film much more than the novel mainly because of Mandy Moore's acting.
This novel is a guide to every man for how to love a woman like Landon did. And for women this novel is a thesis as how to be so pure and be a good heart as Jamie. I am so proud and happy to tell the whole world that I have read this most beautiful novel.


Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Love - A God Damn Thing!

You have heard about it or not... But love at teenage is going to inevitable.  Some kind of cosmic force it was.  You easily get attracted to someone.  You start admiring someone's values, riches, faults and their advantages.  You either say YES or NO.. Love will occupy your heart anyway without your permission.  That love either becomes a disease to make you suffer or a diagonosis for all the wounds you had before.  Love just happens with someone.  You try avoiding it, it happens, you try embracing it, it moves away, you start running away from it, it chases you, you cheat it, it punishes you, you punish it, it cheats you, ... You know it is ought to happen with someone other who would treat you well, but you watch it happening with someone who will make you suffer the most, you cant prohibit it, you cant escape from it, all you can do is just to watch it happening.  Love is such a God damn thing, it never needs permission from anyone, even from yourself to build a nest in your heart or to hatch eggs in it...

Monday, May 20, 2013

Don't Care Only About Me

Dont care only about me


I know you have to care others too

Dont give all your time only to me

I know you have to spend time on other things too

Dont love me too much

I dont ask for that

But even when you love me only a little

Love me truly .. Thats all I ask

Even when you give only a small place for me in your heart

I will happilly stay in it

Provided the space is meant only for ME

Sunday, May 19, 2013

To My Lovely Daughter!!



I am writing for three years, and I know I will be writing for much more years. I have written about various things. I believed I did write best of mine as far as I could. Some may be good, many may be bad. I didn't care about it. I left it to those who read. I wasn't a recognized writer or a person now. I don't know whether at least someday I would make it up to it or not. But one thing I know for sure that one day you will be reading the write ups of mine. May be in your high school days or may be in your college days you will be interested to read everything I wrote. I believe you will be proud that your father has at least tried for something. Then you will search for everything I have written and who knows you may be worrying that I hadn't written anything for you. It is not like that my pretty, this one is for you. Just for you. I wanted you to tell that I love you more. I started loving you even before you are born. I wanted to bring a bright future for you even before I married your mother. I have given a permanent place for you in my heart even before knowing about the girl I was going to marry. It was all because I believe a part of me loving her truly mixed with my genes would have given birth to a part of her in you. Would you believe that you are resemblance of my first love, which went away from my hands? I learnt how to love from her and I started loving her, but at one time when she was gone I got none to love, so I started loving you dearly even before you came into my life. Love you my angel!!

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Confessions Of My Diseased Heart!

Today I overheard a phone conversation between a boy and his lover.  They were speaking about a shirt of him.  She was actually at Delhi while he was in Chennai, they were about thousand miles away and both had seen them six months before, but still remembers everything about him... She rightly points out the colour of the shirt.  He says that it wasnt the shirt he was speaking and dugs out another shirt that was in her memory. Wasnt it so cute?? How much they love each other. She remembers everything about him and he trusts every words of her.  They share with them a parental and children love with each other.  Love between them made me to worry that why I wasnt destined to be like them.  Why I was cursed to live and wither just like a lonely rose without anyone to care about it.  May be it was God's mistake that he hadnt given me the girl I loved so much or a girl I would love so much.   May be it was my mistake that though I was averagely looking I wanted to loved and to be loved by a gorgeous girl.  There are many girls out there who just wants someone to love and to be loved but I dont want to chose them because I want to be loved by a gorgeous girl.  I know I am commiting a bigger mistake here but I cant stand saying to my mind that I should not be like this.  All I want is to love and marry a beautiful girl though she would love me or not, but I really want to because marrying a beautiful girl was like a defect in my heart if it wasnt cured then I doubt I may not love my wife at all.  I dont want this to happen so I just want to marry a beautiful girl and no matter of other thins whether she is rich or not, mute or dumb doesnt matter.  Many things have its roots in it, I loved my gorgeous fair doll Nitthu, and only way to stop loving her and love another is to marry another gorgeous white doll like her, else no other go... Thats the truth of my heart!!

Sunday, May 5, 2013

Oh! God You Suck...

Oh! Mother fucking God, I really hate you bastard!!
Why are you giving so much unearable pain to me...
Not only to me .. YOu give only sadness and troubles to most of the people...
What you really get by this sadist!!
If God is a human like us then he would not making people to suffer like this...
You should have just shut up after creating LOVE ..
You should not have created Marriage...
Many love stories fail  because of this...
You created MOney but why the fuck you created RICH & POOR...
Many is spoiled because of this...
You created HAPPINESS to make it feel fucker you created SADNESS its Okay
But why you give DEPRESSION to many of us..
We cant hold it.. No animals think but we often wish we could die insead to live better
You created LIFE then why you create DEATH...
What is the meaning of the former then??
Bastard!! You really suck and so were the entire things you created...
Next time you create a world, seek help from someone...
Because YOU SUCK!!!

Sunday, April 28, 2013

Suicide!!!!

You want to commit suicide .. Right
But do you know you could still choose the way of how you die... 
You can drink poison and die with less pain
You can point a bullet to your head and die within a second
You can hang yourself and die painfully
You can cut yourself with a knife and die brutally
Or .........
You can die naturally after some days withholding all the pains and hurt... 
Why you want to leave so soon?? 
Its just going to be a few more days!!
After that even when you want to live you wouldn't be...
You have to cross this stage because one day 
You are going to smile looking back on to this day...
Its what life is all about.. 
Buddy,. when you cant life in your hands in the way you want
Then why cant you offer yourself in the hands of life 
And just enjoy everything as the way the happens!!!

Sunday, March 10, 2013

Going With The Flow


In my solitary nights I couldn’t sleep
You played the music so poignant and deep
The nightmare came, you aren’t mine to keep
There you gave me a thousand reasons to weep

You gave me smiles in the morning
And offered me tears in the evening
Yesterday you made me feel like everything
But today you make me feel like nothing

You guided me on the paths of darkness
And left me on the streets of loneliness
At last I banged on the doors of sadness
You opened the door to welcome me with gladness

You brought me heaven with your sweetest words
But your silence hurts me like a thousand swords
I pray and beg to all those existing lords
To bring us back our lovely worlds

As the way, your stupid stories made me happy,
The way your silly fights makes me cry
Don’t ever say goodbye I fear I would die
Give me your wings and once again make me fly

The person who loves me to the core
Is the same one who Hurts me even more
Relationship is a sand house built ashore
Egoistic waves may take it offshore
  
So, Forgive my mistakes like you accepted my faults
For you know, hurting you has never been in my thoughts
You and I are each others’ missing parts
So never let a noise to break the rhythm of our hearts

Don’t take much time to forgive me
There is some truth beyond what you could see
I love you more than you dreamt to be
So, Break these egoistic chains and set me free

Break-ups are common in a relationship,
They are like voyage in a damaged ship
Hold it strong when you are losing the grip
Going with flow will just make a finer trip