Monday, July 30, 2012

DIFFERENCE BETWEEN: CRUSH, FRIENDSHIP, LOVE AND TRUE LOVE...

CRUSH:-
  "Unlike poles attract each other" I think this will possibly explain why a boy get attracted towards a girl and the vice versa.  When this attraction is a little intense, then people wish to attain their attractive ones, here legally the attraction may be called as a crush...But when they realize that they cannot either get along with them or be a part in their life. And when they want to move on in their life...People cruelly crush their feelings inside of their heart itself and gives their attraction a  pseudo name called crush and they move on in their ordinary life.
If boys' eart can be operated we can find a high school teacher lying underneath tagged with a name called CRUSH ( hotter one mostly) ..:D and if girls' brain (as far as I guess it is their love organ ) is operated  then there may be anyone starting from a neighbor house watchman to a Bollywood hero, who is burried as crush..
FRIENDSHIP:
It is a phase before love compulsorily and after love sometimes unluckily...:P To remain adhered to the topic I will write friendship about the opposite genders... When a boy and girl get a chance to know about each other of what they like and hate...when a boy protects her and when a girl helps him...its all friendship...they chat, discuss, argue, help, fight and remain as such with the changes happening around them .  It often remains as a foundation  to love and that is when both understands or fears that in their journey of life they could never meet someone so interesting and such a pair...and what?? Duffer..they fall in love idiot. And I cannot write about a girl or a boy having many friends of the opposite gender...
Perhaps, some remain as friends: one or both of them having buried their feelings within them just because they are forced to...
A few who have crossed their fingers for the friendship bud to blossom as a love flower, are really blessed when mutual understanding breeze softly opens up the petals of t bud into an ever-wilting love flower.
And a few remain as honest friends when one or both has found that their soul-mate is some-other...
This holds true for the love stories of 90's..However, with this modern gadgets love...Friendship is a code word to break up.,certainly after a break up.
Ex...When a guy in a relationship is bored of explaining to his girl that there are colors other than pink...animals other than dogs...stuffs other than chocolates. he plainly says that they can remain as friends... Yes, when a relationship gets bored (pardon me or when it is efficiently used up) then an intelligent guy will convince her girl that they shall end up as friends for the good of both...In a way boys are a little arrogant and clever(Evil smile), when a girl (Cunning one of course) possibly says the same coz after that she will be once again baptized with a new common name called.."Bitch"
This is how friendship goes...
LOVE:-
This is pleasant feeling mixed with emotions both physical and mental...It is when a girl or a boy having no idea receives a proposal and decides to end up with him/her because he/she is the one they happily live with. And the worst case occurs later...that blamingly when they meet someone, without whom they cannot happily live with. And these are the cases where the providence plays a great comic role...But like a joker in Dark Knight..it is evil..
Love, apparently happens only once, but we can make it happen during the second and third time.  The subtle difference between love and true love is that..when one can imagine our marriage with another other than our soul mate..at the same time could not tolerate imagining some other holding their loved ones' hands in the marriage stage it is love...And true love is when they believe that their sweet heart must be happy where ever or with whom ever they might be.
TRUE LOVE:
(Mothers love..fathers love...etc. are not dealt here)
It is mostly an unrequited or untold one...(Platonic in 90% of the cases) that's because human will love someone truly only when they do not get a thing or have lost it...If my brain is tilted towards the question what True love means mine would project with an answer of first love...Yes..true love happens only once & remains forever...with only one & no other
Other than that true love means sacrifice if in a couple..true love means to hold their arms together during the ups,downs..zenith and abyss of happiness and sorrowfulness to indicate the whole that they are forever blessed...True love is when two souls in final stages of their life..taking in the air the other souls gives out..just because they want to breath only after making sure that the other soul is living well...
Well in these computerised love decades, true love means nothing other than exchanging their facebook or gmail passwords...:D :) :D

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

So Simple Is that...


“Wonders, surprises, regret or remorse whatever it may bring,
Either blissful smile or seamless tears whatever it may result
Afterwards, I may be proud and happy of attempting this greatest venture
Or I may curse myself for doing this blunder mistake…Perhaps,
If I wish to own you, sooner or later I have to do this for sure…
There may be thousand others who will be a better match for you…
Yet, I feel that there will be no one like me who loves you…
And this gives me the confidence to say to you about my wish
Yes, I believe you and I belong to a single word called US
We never know how wheels of time are going to rotate and alter the paths of our lives
So what I feel at this particular stage of my life seems to be more important
Because this moment I hope will make my life forever beautiful…
I don’t want to delay anymore…
So simple is that, you understand,
“I love you… and I wish to spent my life with you””

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

DONT BE FANATIC OF YOUR GOD, IF HE EXISTS THEN HE WONT LIKE THIS...


IF GANESH IS THE REAL GOD TO BE IN EXISTENCE WITH INFINITE KNOWLEDGE AND POWER...THEN HOW COULD HE ALLOW THE EXISTENCE OF OTHER RELIGIONS SUCH AS CHRISTIANITY, ISLAM AND OTHERS…SIMILARLY IF JESUS OR ALLAH ARE THE REAL GODS WITH INFINITE POWER THEN HOW COULD THEY TOLERATE THE EXISTENCE OF PEOPLE WORSHIPING OTHER GODS (WITH THEIR INFINITE POWER THEY WOULD HAVE DESTROYED OTHER WORSHIPERS OR THEY WOULD HAVE CHANGED OUR HUMAN MINDS TO WORSHIP ONLY THEM)...
BUT IT DOESN’T, THIS MEANS BOTH THE EXISTENCE OF A PARTICULAR RELIGION AND PARTICULAR GOD IS EITHER ABSURD OR ALL THE EXISTING RELIGION AND THEIR GODS MUST BE FRIENDLY WITH EACH OTHER.  SO IT DOESN’T MAKE SENSE WHEN PEOPLE FIGHT FOR THEIR OWN RELIGION AND THEIR OWN GOD.
 You may or may not have understand wht I m trying to say...My point is...
WHEN YOU ARE FANATIC TOWARD A PARTICULAR RELIGION EVEN THE GOD OF THE RELIGION WHOM YOU BELIEVE TO EXIST WON’T TOLERATE THIS….BECAUSE IF THE EISTENCE OF RELIGIONS OTHER THAN THE ONE OF YOUR PARTICULAR GOD’S IS A PROBLEM THEN IT IS INDEED HIS AND NOT YOURS PROBLEM. 

Monday, July 16, 2012

Let it go...


When you realise that you have fallen in love with someone, it is always better to make your sweet heart to become aware of it soon, because until you say them, they will never knew.  Instead don't unnecessarily dream about your future with them, you can't be certain of playing a major role in their own script.  Though this increases the love of you it may also result in causing an incurable wound.  So it is better to warn them to think well before they chose on whose arms they shall fall.  If you are afraid now, then you will be afraid always...Don't be stupid enough that they will realise it by themselves or by your gaze and they will also have fallen in love with you just because you have. 
When you propose be confident of taking everything easily.  If your love is reciprocated then it is a heaven on earth for you.  Never let ego to play a role in between in you.  But mostly after your proposal you will realise to the cruelty that your love got ignored.  If that happens you will be depressed and your life will become a void within the fractions of a second...but at some point of time you will realise you cannot go on like this.  Do whatever that makes you feel okay or better because you have no other option. 
When you find that your sweet heart has already mingled with some other soul, you will hate everything from your existence to god and your being.  But remember even Romeo, who sacrificed his lovely life for his another half Juliet, is a broken heart of Rosemary before he met Juliet.  Yes, some love stories end abruptly so that some epic love stories shall begin.  So never try to impress or deceive them anymore, after they have found their own life partner, instead try to be an honest friend to them.  If it is not possible just wish them all the best and stay away from their life as much as possible. 
WHATEVER IT MAY BE...whenever you are in love never do anything silly or cruel., and never think of ending your life to escape from all these mental torments...ignoring these try to remain gentle, calm and trustworthy...
Don't worry that your love have went untold, unrequited or mislead...because if God be there then he will love you for your gentleness in your love and you will love him back. God is someone who is within you.  So when you love god, then eventually you will love yourself....And there begins the real meaning of your life and that is when you realise your soul mate is indeed someone other....      

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Top Novel Publishing Companies In India


Here are the few publishers those who will not read the query letter even, all they do is when they receive our query mails, they fix a forwarding message to our address to be sent after 2 or 3 days, saying that they are already busy with their projects.
1.       PENGUIN
2.       RANDOM HOUSE
3.       HARPER COLLINS
4.       ZUBAAN
Their replies are like

Many thanks for your proposal! Please regard this as a letter confirming
the receipt of your work. Our editors will assess what you have sent us,
and if we accept the work for publication or find that we are keen to read
the complete manuscript, you'll certainly hear from us within six to eight
weeks. However, we sincerely regret that because of the large volume of
manuscripts we receive, it isn't possible for us to send out individual
emails to writers whose work we are unable to publish. If you do not hear
from us within the six to eight weeks, please know that we have been
unable to accept your work for publication. Please note that we will not
return any manuscripts. We do hope you understand.

Warm regards,
The Editors
Then like a telephone ringing in a locked house there won’t be any answer from them.
And here are the publishers who will never read your synopsis but their reply will be
(I attached my synopsis in my mail, with a synopsis..In that synopsis, I wrote “I know you wont be reading this“  and typed it for 20 times then sent it to them)
1.       RUPA
2.       ROLI BOOKS
3.       WESTLAND
4.       YODA PRESS
5.       HACHETTE


We thoroughly went through your synopsis and full manuscript. We really appreciate getting a chance to consider your proposal and while there truly is some great writing here, but unfortunately this book doesn't fit into our publishing programme at the moment and therefore, we will not be able to take it up for publishing.

Many thanks again for considering us for this work.
  I was really laughing much while reading this, and worst of all the publishers were rupa they just check author profile and nothing other…


This is what some other publishers do..they sent us a mail that they have accepted to publish ours and their reply will be
  Greetings from ****** Publishing! Thanks for writing in .

We confirm the receipt of your submission. The submission is complete will all required elements.
We are forwarding your submission to the Editorial section of ****** Publishing, a senior editor will take discussions further with you post complete evaluation of your work.

       You may expect the senior evaluator to get back to you within 15 working days (3 weeks) or earlier.

·          Incase of any delay or lapse please feel write back to the senior evaluator  with a reminder or to *******

·         This e-mail is only a confirmation of your completed submission and cannot be treated as a selection by the company. The senior evaluator’s decision will be final.

And there will not be any answer from them, they just accept but never publish that’s the hard truth to be digested.  They are

1.     LEADSTART
2.     GREYOAK, ETC

GRAPEVINE:

THIS IS THEIR REPLY, AND I HEARD THAT THEY PUBLISH ONLY THEIR WORKS…
We received your proposal and our editors have gone through it. However, it does not fit our publishing profile and hence we won’t be able to undertake the same for publication.
Thank you for your interest in our company; we wish you the best in placing it elsewhere.

MAHAVEER, MILLS AND BOON.

I do not know about them as my word count doesn’t fit into their programme..

 And there are many other publishers , such as v.s, who are indeed robbers in the fake name of publishers..


Nevertheless, there are few awesome publishers who promptly respond to our queries and consider giving a chance to new authors,
They are
1.     SRISHTI …..AND NO OTHER
Even in their busy schedule and best recognised stature, they try hard to give chance to new authors…unluckily we havenot seen any of their books since a few months. I guess they are hibernated



I AM NOT WRITING THIS TO AVENGE THEM, BECAUSE THEY REFUSED TO ACCEPT MINE.  I KNOW THEY CANNOT PUBLISH EVERYONE WHO WRITE. MAY BE MINE WOULD NOT BE WORTHY OF BEING PUBLISHED.  PERHAPS, WHAT I CANNOT TOLERATE IS THAT THEY NEVER PUBLISH ANY NEW AUTHORS, WHO DO NOT HAVE STRONG RECOGNITION OR MONEY…AND THEY FORGET THEIR OBLIGATION… AT LEAST THEY SHOULD READ THE SYNOPSIS.  THEY SHOULD BE CAREFUL BEFORE REJECTING ANY AUTHORS QUERY WHO KNOWS IT MIGHT BE A MASTERPIECE. 
AND AS FAR AS I KNOW THERE ARE MANY MASTERPIECE WORKS STILL UNRECOGNISED, UNPUBLISHED IN INDIA...    
AND THESE CLEARLY EXPLAINS, WHY POPULAR WORKS ARE NOT GOOD AND GOOD WORKS ARE NOT POPULARISED IN INDIA.



Monday, March 12, 2012

I want only you No one..Why cant you realise this..

Though you ask me to get away from your life, I dont coz I am afraid of one thing...
I dont want to remain as a gentle man to you and watching u live with another...
I will rather remain as culprit in order to live with you, so that u hate me or love me it is up to you, but u remain safe in my arms..
Though you do not wish i will pester you to live with me...
It is no way I will leave you my girl... on others hands...
But if u force ten I don't hav any other option yet I will resist as far as I could...
It is not about my life, it is about your life too.
I am afraid that other man would not love you as much as i do.
But if you wish i am not your pair ten u may find ur own
but make sure that someday u don't compare his love with mine n cry inside of ur heart...
because if u do then i will be t one to suffer t most
thinking tat i shouldn't have left you on that day u said me to get away from your life...

I wish this happens..Oh God I beg you this happens to me with my white mouse


I still couldn’t believe how things had worked like a charm.
 I was much astonished on how things get changed extraordinarily in our ordinary lives.  I remember everything happened was a normal one but now when I look back on to them they look as if they were the best things that could have happened to anyone but me.  She was a perfect example of this.  She happened to me just like an ordinary person, I never knew that someday she would become my angel.  Now I realise she was the best happened to me in an ordinary way.  Though I have her established as an angel in my life, what did she ever think of me? Did she ever think of me?  As I told she was an angel and an angel would have many admirers.  Was I one among them or did I meant something more than this to her?  If she knew that I admire her and want to adore her as the most precious ornament of my life, would she be interested in living with me forever.   I never knew that I would get a YES, for my question until the day I proposed her with full of anxiety and fear.  I still wonder how this miracle happened to me in my life.  It is always a fact that I wonder after the miracles happen in my life.
She like most of the girls never said a yes, as soon as I proposed, she watched me to suffer in the gateways of pang and ecstasy while making me wait for her a simple single word answer of either a yes or a no.  Nonetheless I wasn’t angry for her cruel intention, as I believed she would give me her consent.  She really loved the way I love her.  She gave a pleasant YES with her visage resplendent like a first golden rose that ever blossomed on this Earth. Then I showed my moon to my parents and pleaded them to make arrangements such that, this moon would flew forever in my sky.  And this made this day to happen.     
  Everyone has something to describe a few moments as their life’s most precious moments.  We at any time in our life had expected that this day would be that auspicious day, which would decorate the remaining of our days in our life time.  Today we are going to say to this world,
“Our two souls are made to be lashed with one another by the bond of love and affection, so that our souls forever remain as one.” Today we are going to be engaged.
  Thousands of my moments passed unproductively whilst expecting for this precious moment.  That precious moment came, we are here being the centre of attraction.  All the good looking and bad looking boys focussed on her countenance, which blushed with a great joy of having found a good life partner.   No girls looked at me, as they are busy on looking the beautiful and sparkling dress and ornaments she wore.   Before proposing her I was worried of the men who might come to get hold of her, even now I was worried for the same.  Though I know since from the day she gave her consent, she is my beloved and no one can get her, yet there are some apprehensive thoughts running inside my mind that how everything could go fine in a beautiful love story like us.  I prayed to God that no twists are made by him in our story.  I soon wanted to exchange the rings on our fingers.  I sooner want to make her my wife.  Perhaps, she is so cool like the other days.  I drew some complacence every time I saw her lips curving a little, and I felt too proud if I am the reason behind it.  Our parents are so elated that they never wanted to take their eyes at least for a second because of the fear that some precious moments of us might get escaped from their vision.  I slowly whispered in her ears, the usual three words sentence.  When I said this she turned her head towards me with an elaborated smile.  She suddenly closed and opened her eyelids symbolising, “Dear you no need to say this.  I know that before.”
 But I was not happy with this, while I speak her with my words how could she be answering with a gesture.  So I demanded her to say me, I love you.  First she ignored my demand.  So I requested her, but she doesn’t respond me as she focussed on the crowd and is afraid that the crowd may be attentive on us.  At last I threatened her
 “Say I Love you, else I will shout the same on the crowd pointing you.”
  Anxiously she looked on to me and said,
“I love you soooooo much, will u keep quiet now.”  Her eyes sparkled and perplexed me whether she had wore any gold on inside of her eyes too.  And her smile is no match that explains why certain girls look damn gorgeous with a simple smile. 
We thought no one would be knowledgeable on the things going over here in between us, and this proved how innocent we are, when the whole crowd laughed on seeing the childish things we are involved with.  Then few moments later she picked the ring and slipped that on my ring finger gently.  While her fingers touched mine I was so excited that I never wanted that moment to end soon.  Then I used the chance and took my own time in enjoying the feeling of touching her fingers, while I dropped the ring into hers.  Less I slipped the ring into hers and more I played with her fingers like a child holding her mothers.  We looked on to our parents and the crowd the same happiness, which remained with us, danced on their faces too. The day remained special because of her and she will always remain special in my life because of this day.  Now she has become so called my fiancée and I am her fiancé. We had desire for each other and now let the whole world shall know that we are destined to live together as well.  This great day’s remembrance increased the anxiety and expectation of how beautiful our day of wedding would be… and I am restlessly waiting for it.

I dont mind getting humilated by you


some day i want to say to this world that you are the one why because i attained my  dream, please wait for me until i attain my dream.  Someday i will attain my dream and you wont believe.  yes you are the reason why i attained my dream.  i loved you that caused everything.  i am ready to miss you for somedays but i do not want to miss you forever.  i could never imagine you living with another one. i have never been like this to anyone.  to you u i dont want to show my pride or ego and i dont mind getting humilated by you.  you are the most important one in this world.  i wish you could understand that these are not merely words i wish that you will be understanding my tears that streamed down my cheeks while i wrote this. I dont mind what you think of me afterward of reading this, you may think i am selfish, troublesome, mad or loveable whatever it may be, I beg you please accept me as your life partner i will be an angel in your life.  I could realise i am disturbing you and it is not fair to do something like this but when i think about how happy i will be if the things lying underneath of my heart is said to you and u wish to live with me after knowing these.  you are flawless and i have many faults but for the love's sake accept them. and just say a word yes and permit me to bestow my love for thee.. which is the extreme love a man can possess for a woman

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

My favourite quotations from movies

A BEAUTIFUL MIND:
Terrified, petrified, mortified and stupefied by you
A problem has more than one solution.

ENEMY AT THE GATES:
Commissioner-Do you know how to shoot?, Vassali- A little
Vassali - I saw you. You were reading and you fell you asleep.  I didn't look at you.  You were so beautiful. It was scary afterwards, I couldn't stop thinking about you.  It made me smile.  And then i thought about all the men who would get to hold you, Who would make you laugh, how lucky they were? And now I am the one who is lying next to you
Tania- Was I snoring? Vassali- Like a pig.

TITANIC:I jump; you jump; I can't turn back without making sure that you are OK
A women hear has a ocean of secrets
Rose: I love you, Jack.
Jack: Don't you do that, don't say your good-byes.
Rose: I'm so cold.... ...
Jack: Listen, Rose. You're gonna get out of here, you're gonna go on and make lots of babies, and you're gonna watch them grow. You're gonna die an old... an old lady warm in her bed, but not here, not this night. Not like this, do you understand me?
Rose: I can't feel my body.
Jack: Winning that ticket, Rose, was the best thing that ever happened to me... it brought me to you. And I'm thankful for that, Rose. I'm thankful. You must do me this honor, Rose. Promise me you'll survive. That you won't give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Promise me now, Rose, and never let go of that promise.
Rose: I promise.
Jack: Never let go.
Rose: I'll never let go. I'll never let go, Jack.."
Jack: Listen, Rose. You're gonna get out of here, you're gonna go on and make lots of babies, and you're gonna watch them grow. You're gonna die an old... an old lady warm in her bed, but not here, not this night. Not like this, do you understand me?
Rose: I can't feel my body.
Jack: Winning that ticket, Rose, was the best thing that ever happened to me... it brought me to you. And I'm thankful for that, Rose. I'm thankful. You must do me this honor, Rose. Promise me you'll survive. That you won't give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Promise me now, Rose, and never let go of that promise.
Rose: I promise.
Jack: Never let go.
Rose: I'll never let go. I'll never let go, Jack.."

THE GAME PLAN:Today no matter, that whether I won or lose in this match I swear, you are the best thing ever happened to me.

A WALK TO REMEMBER:
Landon- Are you Scared?
Jamie- To death, I am scared of not being with you.
love is like a wind, you can't see it but feel it.
Love is patient and kind, it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited, it is never rude or selfish, i doesn not take offense, not it is resentful,  love takes no poleasure in others' sins but delights in truth.  it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes.

CINDERELLA MAN:
Yesterday in my dream I went for a Queen's party.  I ate all of the sausages and breads.  Every where was a rum flow.  I am stuffed.  I went for ice-cream 
for three times.  I am stuffed a lot.  Want Daddy's too?

MEMENTO:
When you believe everything is lost and everything around you is going wrong, Still your instinct will help you.

I AM SAM:
Without him she will become a hole and she will live the remaining of her life to fulfill it.

SHAWSANK REDEMPTION:
hope is a good thing, may be best of all the things. And no good thing dies soon.
They call Pacific as an endless memory.
PURSUIT OF HAPPYNESS:
Never Let anyone to say you can't.  Even me. You gotta dream you gotto protect it.

BLACK SWAN:
Being perfect not only means to control every move, but also it means that you should lose yourself,
When you are not surprised by yourself you cant surprise the audience
What have you done to yourself? Nina-I felt it perfect; I was perfect.

FORREST GUMP:
Mama always said things so i could understand them
Life is a box of chocolates, we never know what we are going to get next.
Why don't you love me Jenny? I'm not a smart man, but I know what love is..
I dont know if we each have a destiny or just floating around accidental like on a breeze. I think may be it's both.



Wednesday, February 8, 2012

How My Marriage Would Be???


I was sitting there as the groom, a groom who was little nervous and fully excited about being the centre of attraction.  The aroma of blithe and different flowers of various colours were spread over the whole place.   The pleasing music of the marriage eve can be heard everywhere.
 Almost all our friends and relatives have gathered in the place to lively visualise the happening of a heavenly marriage.  It was my day and her day; our day.  All the arrangements were made by our parents in the mint condition with a keen focus that the day has fallen nothing sort in terms of anything. 
 The relatives and friends have been busy with their talks yet their eyes cleanly focussed on me.  I was little afraid that I can never be a perfect match to her, in terms of appearance, but my fear vanished when I saw our parents’ faces.  In our parents face a hundred splendid suns glow together flaunting their happiness.
The pressure in my brain rose a bit every minute, because I have never been a centre of attraction like this before.  With the traditional Indian costume being wrapped, my body smelled with the Red Sandals, which my mother applied over me before, soothed my mood.
 As a feast to the eyes of everyone, she came downstairs with her slow steps.  The musical notes of Nadhswaram gained their pitch and their volume too rose highlighting the entry of the moon-faced bride.   My tension got a little relieved because as soon as the people’s gaze caught her sight, their attention turned towards her from me.  Now she became the centre of attraction like every time.   Another four girls accompanied her. They too are beautiful, but none could compete with her. (I am little worried that my license to ogle these beauties is going to cancelled soon; but how the pennies of beauty would tempt him when he is going to become a billionare of beauty)  

Her hands are polished with ornate Mehndi.    The ornaments she wore sparkled but wasn’t noticeable much as her blissful countenance shined over, surpassing it.  The pink silk sari with the golden embroideries of foliages, sewn with blue and pale green borders captured all the eyes of the women.  But none of the above adorned her like the nature did; it perfectly adorned her by gifting the flawless beauty.
 The excitement and exuberance of the surrounding air, which were billowed by the crowd of relatives and friends, rocked the whole Mahal.   Then she came near me.  I saw her eyes; they conveyed me how her heart is bouncing inside.   Her visage appeared like a serene pond, while her feminine shyness was the reverberations on it, when a leaf of a demure smile was dropped by her protruding lips.
She came and sat near me. The whole attention of the people rested with us.  I put my fingers over hers, unknown to anyone.  She suddenly raised her head towards me as soon as my fingers disturbed hers; then with an inhibited cute smile, she again put her head down facing the Earth. 
Few moments later I felt the auspicious thread resting in my hands.  I felt as if I attained the whole world.
The music from Nadhswaram and other instruments once again gave loud beats and notes exhibiting the arrival of the most precious moments.        
 Then I indicated the whole world that she was mine, mine forever by tying the auspicious thread around her neck.  The flowers, which our friends and relations bestowed, reached us like a shower of wishes straight from the heaven.   I am so elated and engrossed by the splendour things happening in my life.  I fathomed that I was forever blessed.  Then I recognised the things, which were running in her mind. I realised what she felt. Eventually, I comprehended the fact our two souls tied to each other by this sacred thing has ultimately become as one. 
Then I saw in the eyes of some men, who came over there, filled with jealousy of how I could be born as the one to deserve this priceless boon.   Subsequently I visualised some of the faces brimmed with the sadness of their love being gone as an unrequited or untold one.  And I was sorry that I am the responsible for that. 
     

Monday, February 6, 2012

You Were Still A Kid.


“You are my lovely kid”, you said when I was born,
You taught me to speak, write and walk.
You gave me all the knowledge about people and the world.
You applied oil to my hair and powder to my face
You never let me away from your sight and,
 You were cautious on my every action.
You told I was just a kid to learn them by myself,

I went to school, you said the same.
You held my hands, and taught me how to cross the roads safely;
You combed my hair, adjusted my tie and tied up my shoe laces;
You accompanied me to the school every day,
As a protector, from the stray dogs;
After the dark, you never allowed me to play with others,
You were afraid of the news spread over the child abduction.
You told “my little Prince, is just a school going kid”

And after I finished my primary schooling,
You never wanted me to rush for the school bus, and
You were heeded that I had no trouble with other chaps in my bus.  
You eagerly waited for safe return of me from the school,
A minute’s delay of my bus would cause,
Thousands of apprehensive thoughts in your mind
With another minute’s delay, you would be ready to come to my school.
 You said to me that I was still a kid, to watch out these,
Because I might, get easily deceived by others.

I finished my school, and went for graduation.
You still bought my favourite stuffs and clothes,
You never allowed me for late night cinemas,
Whenever rained, you pestered me to carry an umbrella,
You were careful, that I may get sick,
And whenever I got ill, though I refused,
You compelled and dragged me to the doctor,
 And there you advised the doctor, not to prescribe the sour tonics. 
You said I was still a kid,  
And I hadn’t grown yet to deal these by myself.

I graduated and went for a job.
The whole world saw me as a man,
With you the things hadn’t changed,
They remained the same like the things, done when I was a kid.
You prohibited every time when I wanted to drive a bike;
You scolded me, when I watched T.V. continuously for hours.
You made sure that I ate properly and was not distracted by anything.
You even then, made me sleep early and didn’t want to wake me up so early.
In the night still you check whether the blanket had covered me fully or not
You told that I was still a kid, and
 I was young and not mature enough to care myself.

I got married and I become father to my kid.
You pampered my kid, yet stroked my head and said,
“Always you are my favourite kid”.
Still you wait over the door, so that I can leave home comfortably
Ring me up continuously, when I was not in time to the home;
You still wanted me to drink the turmeric milk every night.
Still, you take much care about me like you did always,
And as usual you would say,
I was still a kid to give more attention to my health.
How much old I may become, I know, for you
I would never grew beyond a juvenile and
I would always remain a kid, as youthful as the day I was born. 

Though I was always young to you,
And never get aged, you were not like the same.
It was either I forgot or you hide, but
I could understand that,
You were becoming fragile and not as strong as before.
I could realise that you grew old at the same time.
Whenever I see you lying on the bed:
Sometimes without any movement and sound,
Closed eyes with the thoughts about me sleeping peacefully;
I would be scared, that I stumble; and
I stand there for minutes and gaze you silently, then  
I come near you and bend down to hear you breath,
And make sure that my angel still hadn’t left for the heaven.